Dear S,

I know now what it feels like to wait for a letter that may never arrive. It’s my first thought when I wake up and my last thought before I sleep and all my thoughts in between. I go to the post office more than once a day to check if any letters came at all from your unit. I can’t seem to breathe before hearing back from you. All the dark thoughts that are racing through my mind keep me up at night, but you know what’s really ridiculous? I wonder if you still feel the same way. In the midst of war, death and all the agony they bring, this is my most tormenting worry. I go over everything we have been through in my mind and I wonder if I ever deserved your love.

Love always,
L.